Women in Gaza

By Nahda Sh'hada

It wouldn't be fair to repeat the argument which accuses the women's  movement of being the sole paralyzed social movement in the current  circumstances. If this is a correct observation, it pinpoints the crisis of  all social movements in Palestine, from the largest to the smallest,  beginning with the historical political parties, through the trade unions,  and extending to the newly formed, delicate civil society organizations!

The new Intifada has revealed in such a painful way how poor we, who once  believed in people power, have become in terms of our approaches and  activities. Thus, we still have too far to go before we can achieve the  first steps in building a new popular social movement qualified to confront  our abandoned regimes. And if I may, I would apply this observation to the  Arab popular movements as well.

You might be watching TV and seeing what everybody else is seeing. The two  main scenes on the screen are either our children who are full of life,  anger and blood, or the politicians who are defending their political  purposes and preparing for the coming season.

I feel so angry when I watch those flowers: our children. We carried them in  our wombs, we fed them with our blood and tears, we laughed with them, at  them and for them. We built our small houses, dreaming that they would be  made bigger by their laughter and noise.

We dreamt that our children would look after us in our old age, knowing that  there would be no welfare state to ensure our well-being.  Some of us built  huge castles in the air about their sons' future. What would he be like in  the coming years? What would his profession be? How many girlfriends would  he have?  And which neighbour would be the best bride for him? We might have  gone further and thought about the expected mother-in-law and raised some  reservations, but we would then have reassured ourselves that this would be  manageable, we would find a way somehow.

One mother informed me that a few days before her son's murder during the  confrontation in Khan Younis, she had found about his affair with a  neighbour; through some letters in his pocket and few flowers in his book.  After his death, she wanted to send them to his lover but eventually decided  not to do so, as this might complicate the girl's life. The girl couldn't  even reveal her sorrow, as the affair was secret.

Women, mothers, where could you hide your sadness? How would you bury your  love and dreams? How many dreams do you have to bury? Generation after  generation you have developed a culture of silence and acceptance which has  never been appreciated. And when an elegant queen tried her hand in  politics, she found no one to blame but you; you are the murderers of your  children, you have crossed all the borders and thrown your children onto the  Israeli streets to be killed. You did that because you want to see your  children on TV!

Some women here started their theorization about the recent events by  linking the large number of youthful martyrs to the increased level of  poverty in camps and villages, and arrived at this conclusion: Most of our  martyrs come from the camps and villages, their class background reveals a  high poverty level, their family size is high with the average household  being around 12.  Most of these families live in a small single room which  is used for living, eating, cooking and sleeping. Therefore, children are  participating in the Intifada because they have nothing to lose, their lives  have no meaning; children prefer a promised heaven to the hellish life on  this earth.

I might agree to some extent with this analysis, but I am pretty sure that  these flowers were at their peak, they were full of dreams. Who knows how  many dreams those children have? Who can describe what was going in their  minds when they were throwing the stones? How did they overcome all their  fears and go to their death? Why are they smiling like angels? How can I  count them? And when will we stop counting our martyrs?

Each child was a gift for his parents; even with their poverty, mothers used  to put aside their needs and hunger to fill the empty stomachs of their  birds. How can we express this? What language can reveal the mothers' pain?  How can we count their tears? How can we count the uncountable? He will not  quarrel with her any more, she will not shout at him for not doing his  homework. His girlfriend will not receive his poetry. He has gone too early,  he has not even tried his first kiss.

Now, what is the impact of the Intifada on women? I haven't done a survey  about it nor have an intention of doing so, but I am sure that having  4000-5000 wounded persons with their problems and disabilities would  principally affect the mothers' lives. The mother who used to send her son  to the nearest market to bring her bread or vegetables would find herself  nursing him, and this might continue for several years. The bird who used to  jump everywhere around the house and be very noisy, which made her beg him  to be less active, is now paralyzed and she is praying to God to let him  move a single toe.

Previously, with the 1996 closure, and when the unemployment rate reached  its highest peak, women tended to carry on their small, pitiful business  because the unemployed father could no longer provide an income. They used  to freeze vegetables or sew clothes and then sell them either directly to  the consumers or through the merchants in order to feed the family,  including the man who was considered the subsistence provider of the family.  Now, with a disabled child, the mother would find herself suffering under  the 24-hour presence of the unemployed frustrated father, taking care of the  household, nursing the newly disabled child, and finding a way to retrieve a  work. Put aside the problem of water shortages and the electricity being cut  off daily. These women can't be seen on the TV screen, the media comes to  greet them only when they are supposed to play the role of the martyr's or  the wounded person's mother. But after that, everybody forgets them because  the list is pretty long and every day we have new problems to deal with.

Within this context, you might find a stupid interviewer asking some women  representatives: what have women done to support men in the Intifada? What  makes his question more tragic is the representative's answer, telling him  with all her pride that we are doing everything to support our men. She does  not even protest against the way the question was constructed, thanks to the  movement's failure to develop a discourse that clearly reflect women's roles  and pains.

What makes me even more sick is the way some of the elite ride the wave.  They are talking as if they have really paid the same price. Here I remember  a friend's story. At a public meeting he narrated a story which is very  significant:

There was once a Christian village where there were no Muslims. One day the  Church appointed a new priest to look after the religious needs of the  villagers. After a while, people started complaining about his behaviour.  They sent letters to the capital, pleading for him to be transferred, but in  vain. Then they raised their voices and sent a delegation to Rome to discuss  the issue with the Pope. Here they also received a disappointing response.

After several years, they felt unable to tolerate the priest any more;  worse, they felt that the top people in the main church had not paid enough  attention to their complaints. They called a meeting and discussed all sides  of the issue and finally they decided to go to the Islamic mufti in the  nearby village to convert to Islam.

All the villagers went there, with great hopes that the Shaykh would be  better than their current priest. They reached the mufti's house, only to  find to their surprise that their priest had preceded them and changed his  religion. The mufti had nominated him as the Shaykh for the new converts.

Our masters before Islam are our masters in Islam. Now back to the Intifada.  Our masters in previous years are the same as those in the Intifada.  Moreover, they have changed their discourse to suit the new circumstances  and to secure their interests.

There is a saying in Arabic; each period has its own leadership. However,  the current leadership has been leading us for more than 30 years, although  lots of water has passed under the bridge. And the circumstances are worse  for women; our masters in all eras are the patriarchs who define every part  of our lives. At times of crisis, women's conditions deteriorate  drastically, and now we are facing the question of articulating women's  specific problems.

Violence is the main activity nowadays. It is highly encouraged by everybody  because it proves its eligibility and success in combating our enemy's extra  use of violence. How can a young man differentiate between interaction with  an enemy and interaction at the social level? How can we maintain such a  double discourse, encouraging violence against our national enemy and  simultaneously disqualifying it as a practice to resolve social conflicts?  Are we able theoretically and politically to accomplish such a task? And who  would lead such a mission?

I really feel helpless in trying to answer these questions. I am pretty sure  that violence is practised more frequently in the domestic sphere, given  that so many houses have been demolished and consequently so many families  have moved to live with their relatives. Moreover, the rise of unemployed  men, especially among the poor families, adds another problem.

Such a situation raises the question of domestic violence and sexual abuse.  How can 15 to 20 people live together in an extremely small space and  maintain healthy relationships within such a difficult environment? How  would men deal with this and how would women bear it?

Furthermore, because the nationalist discourse is the prevalent one, no  woman can raise her voice about the abuse she faces whether sexual or not.  Women have to confront it silently, and those who are supposed to represent  them are either busy with other activities or fear the shame of discussing  such divisive subjects. I fully agree with the argument that asserts we have  to focus our efforts on driving out the occupation. However, we have to  remember that while some of us are throwing stones at the occupier, social  relations based on power relations continue to have an impact on the most  vulnerable people. I have already met a martyr's widow whose children have  been taken away from her by her husband's family and she has been sent back  to her family's house.

 

Women in Gaza

By Nahda Sh'hada

It wouldn't be fair to repeat the argument which accuses the women's  movement of being the sole paralyzed social movement in the current  circumstances. If this is a correct observation, it pinpoints the crisis of  all social movements in Palestine, from the largest to the smallest,  beginning with the historical political parties, through the trade unions,  and extending to the newly formed, delicate civil society organizations!

The new Intifada has revealed in such a painful way how poor we, who once  believed in people power, have become in terms of our approaches and  activities. Thus, we still have too far to go before we can achieve the  first steps in building a new popular social movement qualified to confront  our abandoned regimes. And if I may, I would apply this observation to the  Arab popular movements as well.

You might be watching TV and seeing what everybody else is seeing. The two  main scenes on the screen are either our children who are full of life,  anger and blood, or the politicians who are defending their political  purposes and preparing for the coming season.

I feel so angry when I watch those flowers: our children. We carried them in  our wombs, we fed them with our blood and tears, we laughed with them, at  them and for them. We built our small houses, dreaming that they would be  made bigger by their laughter and noise.

We dreamt that our children would look after us in our old age, knowing that  there would be no welfare state to ensure our well-being.  Some of us built  huge castles in the air about their sons' future. What would he be like in  the coming years? What would his profession be? How many girlfriends would  he have?  And which neighbour would be the best bride for him? We might have  gone further and thought about the expected mother-in-law and raised some  reservations, but we would then have reassured ourselves that this would be  manageable, we would find a way somehow.

One mother informed me that a few days before her son's murder during the  confrontation in Khan Younis, she had found about his affair with a  neighbour; through some letters in his pocket and few flowers in his book.  After his death, she wanted to send them to his lover but eventually decided  not to do so, as this might complicate the girl's life. The girl couldn't  even reveal her sorrow, as the affair was secret.

Women, mothers, where could you hide your sadness? How would you bury your  love and dreams? How many dreams do you have to bury? Generation after  generation you have developed a culture of silence and acceptance which has  never been appreciated. And when an elegant queen tried her hand in  politics, she found no one to blame but you; you are the murderers of your  children, you have crossed all the borders and thrown your children onto the  Israeli streets to be killed. You did that because you want to see your  children on TV!

Some women here started their theorization about the recent events by  linking the large number of youthful martyrs to the increased level of  poverty in camps and villages, and arrived at this conclusion: Most of our  martyrs come from the camps and villages, their class background reveals a  high poverty level, their family size is high with the average household  being around 12.  Most of these families live in a small single room which  is used for living, eating, cooking and sleeping. Therefore, children are  participating in the Intifada because they have nothing to lose, their lives  have no meaning; children prefer a promised heaven to the hellish life on  this earth.

I might agree to some extent with this analysis, but I am pretty sure that  these flowers were at their peak, they were full of dreams. Who knows how  many dreams those children have? Who can describe what was going in their  minds when they were throwing the stones? How did they overcome all their  fears and go to their death? Why are they smiling like angels? How can I  count them? And when will we stop counting our martyrs?

Each child was a gift for his parents; even with their poverty, mothers used  to put aside their needs and hunger to fill the empty stomachs of their  birds. How can we express this? What language can reveal the mothers' pain?  How can we count their tears? How can we count the uncountable? He will not  quarrel with her any more, she will not shout at him for not doing his  homework. His girlfriend will not receive his poetry. He has gone too early,  he has not even tried his first kiss.

Now, what is the impact of the Intifada on women? I haven't done a survey  about it nor have an intention of doing so, but I am sure that having  4000-5000 wounded persons with their problems and disabilities would  principally affect the mothers' lives. The mother who used to send her son  to the nearest market to bring her bread or vegetables would find herself  nursing him, and this might continue for several years. The bird who used to  jump everywhere around the house and be very noisy, which made her beg him  to be less active, is now paralyzed and she is praying to God to let him  move a single toe.

Previously, with the 1996 closure, and when the unemployment rate reached  its highest peak, women tended to carry on their small, pitiful business  because the unemployed father could no longer provide an income. They used  to freeze vegetables or sew clothes and then sell them either directly to  the consumers or through the merchants in order to feed the family,  including the man who was considered the subsistence provider of the family.  Now, with a disabled child, the mother would find herself suffering under  the 24-hour presence of the unemployed frustrated father, taking care of the  household, nursing the newly disabled child, and finding a way to retrieve a  work. Put aside the problem of water shortages and the electricity being cut  off daily. These women can't be seen on the TV screen, the media comes to  greet them only when they are supposed to play the role of the martyr's or  the wounded person's mother. But after that, everybody forgets them because  the list is pretty long and every day we have new problems to deal with.

Within this context, you might find a stupid interviewer asking some women  representatives: what have women done to support men in the Intifada? What  makes his question more tragic is the representative's answer, telling him  with all her pride that we are doing everything to support our men. She does  not even protest against the way the question was constructed, thanks to the  movement's failure to develop a discourse that clearly reflect women's roles  and pains.

What makes me even more sick is the way some of the elite ride the wave.  They are talking as if they have really paid the same price. Here I remember  a friend's story. At a public meeting he narrated a story which is very  significant:

There was once a Christian village where there were no Muslims. One day the  Church appointed a new priest to look after the religious needs of the  villagers. After a while, people started complaining about his behaviour.  They sent letters to the capital, pleading for him to be transferred, but in  vain. Then they raised their voices and sent a delegation to Rome to discuss  the issue with the Pope. Here they also received a disappointing response.

After several years, they felt unable to tolerate the priest any more;  worse, they felt that the top people in the main church had not paid enough  attention to their complaints. They called a meeting and discussed all sides  of the issue and finally they decided to go to the Islamic mufti in the  nearby village to convert to Islam.

All the villagers went there, with great hopes that the Shaykh would be  better than their current priest. They reached the mufti's house, only to  find to their surprise that their priest had preceded them and changed his  religion. The mufti had nominated him as the Shaykh for the new converts.

Our masters before Islam are our masters in Islam. Now back to the Intifada.  Our masters in previous years are the same as those in the Intifada.  Moreover, they have changed their discourse to suit the new circumstances  and to secure their interests.

There is a saying in Arabic; each period has its own leadership. However,  the current leadership has been leading us for more than 30 years, although  lots of water has passed under the bridge. And the circumstances are worse  for women; our masters in all eras are the patriarchs who define every part  of our lives. At times of crisis, women's conditions deteriorate  drastically, and now we are facing the question of articulating women's  specific problems.

Violence is the main activity nowadays. It is highly encouraged by everybody  because it proves its eligibility and success in combating our enemy's extra  use of violence. How can a young man differentiate between interaction with  an enemy and interaction at the social level? How can we maintain such a  double discourse, encouraging violence against our national enemy and  simultaneously disqualifying it as a practice to resolve social conflicts?  Are we able theoretically and politically to accomplish such a task? And who  would lead such a mission?

I really feel helpless in trying to answer these questions. I am pretty sure  that violence is practised more frequently in the domestic sphere, given  that so many houses have been demolished and consequently so many families  have moved to live with their relatives. Moreover, the rise of unemployed  men, especially among the poor families, adds another problem.

Such a situation raises the question of domestic violence and sexual abuse.  How can 15 to 20 people live together in an extremely small space and  maintain healthy relationships within such a difficult environment? How  would men deal with this and how would women bear it?

Furthermore, because the nationalist discourse is the prevalent one, no  woman can raise her voice about the abuse she faces whether sexual or not.  Women have to confront it silently, and those who are supposed to represent  them are either busy with other activities or fear the shame of discussing  such divisive subjects. I fully agree with the argument that asserts we have  to focus our efforts on driving out the occupation. However, we have to  remember that while some of us are throwing stones at the occupier, social  relations based on power relations continue to have an impact on the most  vulnerable people. I have already met a martyr's widow whose children have  been taken away from her by her husband's family and she has been sent back  to her family's house.